New Start Feeling (originally posted Oct. 24, 2008)

In case you hadn't figured it out yet, i just got internet at my house for the first time, which is huge for me. I've never been able to consistently keep up with everything online, and i can't wait until its second nature.
Lately, my life has been much more hectic and scattered. Junior year actually takes work and i'm not used to that. All this extra effort is odd, but im actaully enjoying it. I feel like im finally doing something, at least academically. I've never had to work for good grades because it comes so easy for me and i think that this has deprived me of a crucial life experience. Hopefully, it gets harder.
Things with my family are just like they always are. I get along pretty well with my dad and my two oldest brothers. My mom and sister are not exactly in my fan club and i never know what to think of Brad. Brad's gf, Heather, is pregnant again andi am really happy for them, whether it will be easy or not. braydon is the best behaved toddler i've ever met, which is saying something. he is adorable and sweet and really smart. Don, Tabby and her daughters are in Georgia and i really miss having my brother around. He is more like me than anyone else in my family. Kate, eric's gf, is someone that is easy to talk to and has the lfie experiences behind her advice. I rarely see anyone outside fo this group, though many live less than ten minutes from here. i miss them, but i guess i'll just have to learn to deal.This year, for the first time ever, my social life is stable. i have a ton of really great friends who are all so much fun to be around and who give great advice. its weird, knowing that all of them actually care. Vikki and Eddie and Chelsea are great. Vikki especially, knows how to cheer me up and i know that i can trust her. She and i have had our rocky years, but im so glad to have her in the end. Tana and Ray and Ashley get it. They know how to have fun, no matter how silly or crazy. Tana and i have been through a lot together, both being the only people at kingsley who really knew Brooke. She loves to talk and helps distract me from the bad things in my life. i hope i do the same for her. Mykayla is... undescribable. She's crazy and cooky and so much fun. Again, we didn't always get along, but somehow we ended up the best of friends when it was all said and done. I think she probably knows more about my than any other human on the planet. And then, of course, there's Brittany. Brittany moved to Kingsley for less than six months last semester and i got really close to her. We did pretty much everything in school together and we had more in common than i've had with anyone else i've ever met. I hate that no one seems to remember who she is, because she is so amazing. i miss her like crazy and hope nothing has gotten screwed up in her life since the last time i've talked to her, because the fates seem to like screwing with her. They all have helped me through issues and allowed me to have fun and i am so grateful to that.
College. It's weird that i already have to start thinking seriously about that. I've already signed up to take the ACT in February and plan to take it again in April, after the one in the school. Im concerned about the SAT, which i have to take to get into my number one college: Columbia University. Besides being located in New York City, which i count as a plus, they are everything that i want in higher learning. They have my major, which has been so difficult to find, and they are a large, prestigious school. i really hope to get in. My first back-up, as of now, is University of Michigan, though i like the Michigan State campus more. The biggest problem will not be getting into a good college, it will be paying for a good college. i have no college fund and must pay for it all through scholarships and loans. Yeah. Hopefully, i will get a lot of scholarships.
After college, i honestly have no idea where i will end up. The greatest part is that i don't have to decide. My career path gives me the opportunity to go wherever and move whenever. i can work from anywhere i want. for a long time, i was set on South Caroline and i may still end up there, for a period fo time at least. but im beginning to fal back in love with winter. Well, not back in love, since ive always hated it, but im really starting to appreciate the season. I want to spend some time in Washington state, thanks of course to Stephenie Meyer, my idol. Though her main character may hate the weather, i love rain, so im all for it. California seems interesting and i would love to check out more of the east. For all i know, i may end up back in Michigan.
The one thing i do know about after college is my writing. i am in the process of writing many books from many different serieses. Thanks to the advice of Eddie, i am working on one book until it is finished, which i hope to accomplish by christmas. Key word there is hope.
So, to conclude (btw,i hate that phrase), i'm online if you want to chat. I've got plenty to talk about if you've got the time.