Ummmm...

Xmas is over. It was weird, cuz it sort of snuck up on us in the first place. It didn't really feel like Xmas.... It was great. I got a lot of the things that I wanted and I am very grateful for that. I got the yarn to finish the blanket that I am making, the Ipod speakers I forgot to tell anyone that I wanted, a USB (flash drive) that someone owed me, and a straightener that I needed. I also got a T-shirt of one of my two fav bands, Breaking Benjamin (Three Days Grace is the other fav rock band) and a fuzzy green scarf from Mykayla, an awesome person. I actually, haven't even finished my Xmas shopping.... They're gonna be late, but it's the thought that counts, right?
Also, 2008 is nearly over. It's sunk in that I won't see [x] factor until 2009, a whole new era. I want things to change. I found this button on facebook (don't judge me) that kinda said it perfectly: Never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about. I haven't. Gone a day without thinking about him, I mean. Not since the day we met. Actually, not since BEFORE we met. We had begun the whole ping-pong thing weeks before we ever exchanged words. And I have thought of him numerous times every single day since then. I can't escape him and I don't want to. I really care about him and I really want to care more... I miss him like crazy whenever we're apart. I am never happier then when we are together, no matter how miserable he makes me. He drives me crazy, fucking up all my plans to get him to notice me, more than he already does, I mean. He always shows up at the wrong moment, yet every moment is soo right. I am crazy. I know that. I have lost my mind over this guy and I won't get it back until something changes in a big way. But that's okay. I have accepted my fate. I have stopped fighting it. It's like fighting death. You can avoid it, but you can never really escape it. He's my living death.
Things with Kelly are exactly as we always knew they would be when she moved out. They're great. I am starting to kinda sorta like her as a person. I haven't forgotten the last few years, not as it pertains to her or my mother. But it seems like everyone else wants to just move on, so whatever. I don't want to act like they didn't happen, but I also don't want to ruin what could be. I don't know exactly how I should deal with it, so for now I am just going with the flow. I haven't really fought with my mother since Kelly moved out. Go figure. Then again, my issues with my mother have only a little to do with Kelly herself. She just happened to be the main spark for the flame. It's still just wait and see at the moment.
My dad is having a lot of medical problems. His back is really bad and he broke his toe. Again. Same toe. He went to the walk-in today and got drugs, so hopefully that will help. Btw, I have to mention that my family knows the walk-in WAY too well. They have fav. doctors and doctors they hate and.... Wow. I have only been in there once or twice in my whole life. They have each been in there a few times a year. .... Kelly wasn't there, but she also probably has her fav. and dislikes. Shes has a lot of medical problems as well. I never really have. I have sprained my ankle twice, and cut my head open once. Oh, and all that stuff with my kidney and bladder when I was younger, but that was a long time ago and has pretty much stabled out. I never even went in for my ankle, either time, and only went to a doctor a few times those years that I had problems with that part of my body. I still have the same issues, but they aren't problematic so much as annoying. Huh.
Ginger, I've noticed, gets VERY territorial about me when Rocky is home. Not so much when it's just Bud, but when Rocky is home, she rarely leaves my lap. I think she knows I like Rocky more, but also that he is so much more in my face than Bud is. It's cute, I guess. She knows who her mommy is.
Again, very grateful for this year's Xmas. Very happy and glad. But I sent a big hint their way. No one got it. I have been putting books (actual names of ones I want, not just books in general) on my Xmas lists for years. Never got even one. So, this year, to send a huge hint to everyone, my entire Xmas list was about 15 different books, then a sweater. Guess what? I didn't get any books. It makes me wonder if that's their way of discouraging my future career. Trying not encourage me in any way with what I want to do, since they don't see it as practical. *sigh*. I have been babysitting, though, so I'll spend the extra money after my last few Xmas gifts on books. I am just nerdy that way.
So, my break so far has been pretty boring. Not been doing much. Had a bunch of fun at Vikki's on Friday. We ate a bunch of junk food, talked and watched a movie. Oh, and laundry. she did a bunch of laundry. I miss her. She's in Arizona right now.... But since, I haven't really done much. I have been reading Wuthering Heights, which is quickly creeping it's way up my fav. book list. I've been doing the practical thing and following along on spark notes, but I have been pretty much getting everything that i need to. I haven't read any of the analysists or theme things, but I might check it out later. For now, I want to experience the book how it was originally meant to be experienced: one page at a time. I haven't really touched my journal for Contemp. Lit, or my World History review. I haven't even gotten to my Spanish notes.... Damn, I'm lazy...
So, I think I am about talked out for now.... Check ya later!

XOXO
Kari Richelle