New Year!!!!!

First of all, I'd just like to say that 2009 had better be just as good as the end of and better than the beginning of 2008. If that's not too much to ask.....

So, not much been going on with me. I finished this huge project in Contemporary Lit. We had to do a journal of ourselves as "drifters", like Holden in Catcher In the Rye. Minimums: five places, one page journals, eight journals. Well, I went to eight places. Started out in New York after college, then went to Athens, London, Madrid, Peru, Kenya, Sydney, Hawaii, and finally back "home" to Kingsley, Michigan. It ended up being 20 pages.... that's nothing though. This was a min. 8 page that became 20. Freshman year, we had to do a diary on a book. Min 4 page. Can you guess the actual total of mine? No? Oh, I'll feed you baby birds!! With the cover page, map (i did Eldest), and two page background, it was 31 pages. That's 27 total of the actual diary. Yes, I AM an over-achiever. Thank you for noticing!!!

I also have a paper due for English that I am not working on.... whoops. The book was amazing* and the paper should be pretty easy when I actually do it, but I also am gonna end up wanting it to be perfect and blah blah blah..... so it will pry take a full day to finish.... UGH!!!

Braydon came over tonight. He was SOOO cute. He was in a really, really good mood. It was really adorable*. He was giggling and laughing and gasping speaking in full sentences and making PHONES out of blocks. that blew me away... soo smart.

Things with the gang (Vikki, Eddie, and Zac) have been pretty good. Apparently Eddie and Zac are fighting, but that's their business. They're both cool with me as far as I know, so it's all good. Yeah. Vikki's Nate is thinking of heading into the Navy and she wants..... well, never mind. Her brother is going to help him get everything settled. Vikki could very well end up an military wife like her sister-in-law, assuming the economy stays bad and Nate can't find a good-paying job before then. For her sake.... well, really, I think she could handle it, either way. She's just as tough as my cousin Shaye.

Speaking of Shaye, CHAD'S HOME!!! It's all I talked about Monday and I have been bugging Vikki about it all week. He is finally out of Iraq with any degree of permanence. I am so completely ecstatic that he's back home with his family, where he belongs. :D

My parents are.... not doing well. But I knew that. I've known that since I was 13. But it's getting serious, as I've been warned for the last three years that it would. I don't know what I want and I don't know what I'll do, and the not-knowing is all I know.

He looked at me a bunch today. Made me happy, like it always does. Still hasn't gone anywhere, though I know that talking to him, getting back over that barrier, would really solve so much. [group] might be starting again. I wonder if he'll be along this time..... It's all come so fast. I remember back in September when I had nearly ten months to make something happen before the next summer. Now I only have five. that's half, for any of those math-deficient people. It's gone by so fast..... though these next few months should be really active.... I don't know exactly what I could say. Do I just go up and say Hi, how have you been in the last eight months? Are we still not talking?? Or, maybe something a little more out-there?? Hey, so question: If you saw me on the side of the road this time of year and you were driving by, would you stop and pick me up? To which he would obviously ask What? Then I would simply say, well, since it's not awkward for us to randomly stare at each other, why can't we ask random questions? couldn't think of a reason, so you get the joy of answering a random question. yeah, I know. I'm obssessed. But I can't help it. I don't want to lose him, but I am so afraid of being rejected. I think the biggest reason is bc I am afraid that the staring won't stop after he rejects me and it will hurt that much more..... I don't want to be a coward, but could I handle not being able to keep my eyes away from a guy who told me no? Who couldn't help but look at me either? .... conflicted, as always.

Oh, and something cool. I got Student of the Month. Shocker, I know. It was for Web Design with Mrs. Lewis. Though, I still hold the record for most awards by different teachers in one month. Last year, in Dec. I got three, which I was informed was a school record. I am awesomer. You may now commence applauding *******************************************************
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Been drinking lots of coffee and my back's been killing me..... more coffee...... On that subject, eric bought new coffee and creamer, which I am allowed full access to, since I was the one that got him back into coffee. it's good too. French Vanilla. and I crush my peppermint log to put in each cup. It's really delicious. I have gotten really good at flavoring my coffee with things at home. Half a packet per cup of hot choco mix works well, vanilla, and crushed peppermint. All great alone and pry taste good all together too. ...

Well, I think that's good for now. Peace Out


XOXO
Kari Richelle