Today was a good day

Today I met with the people who are sending me on my Outward Bound trip. The meeting went very well. I got to hear exactly how everything came about and why I was chosen. I also got to get to know Mr. and Mrs. Umlor, who are really nice and thankfully very laid back. We're getting things going and it's starting to feel real.
That's something I notice whenever I have something big like this planned. I can never see myself actually doing it, almost like something is going to stop it from happening. I noticed it first when I was 10 and 11 and we were getting ready for our Florida trip. I couldn't even imagine myself being there. It happened again before my sister and I went to Georgia to spend the summer with Shaye and again before my family went to Ohio. Now it's this trip, which barely even compares to how I feel about college. It's so weird because I have a great imagination and sometimes it almost feels like the things I imagine are real. Not in a psychotic way, just that I almost live the stories I tell. But I can't imagine it as actually being me, like I can't imagine good things happening to me.... Though it's different with my spring break trip, though this is the one that has been in the most jeapardy of not happening.
Anyways. So school is drawing to a close. That's exciting.... but it means SO many things. School means the end of the stability ive grown accustomed to and the house ive grown up in, the beginning of college, the separation from all of my family, and my first big move. It's all kinda coming together all at once and i somehow still have to get my schoolwork done.... I dont even know how im still functioning.
Ive kinda been more optimistic lately and I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that my family's financial situation is, for the moment, stable. I went on my first shopping spree yesterday. it was fun, but kinda stressful. We had to find shoes..... I dont like shoes and they dont like me. Also, we are on a search for bathingsuits.... not going so well. Nuff said. We are supposed to finish our shopping saturday, so we'll see.
ONLY FOUR SCHOOL DAYS LEFT TILL CAROLINAS!!!!!!